Cerita Kolej 12 : Me now .

Dear friends, 

too many problems now

my life getting dim

no more laugh

only tears with me all night

smile juz for them

for them to think im happy

to hide all my sadness

not making them worry about me

eventhough sometimes i failed

but i'll still make sure 

they stop from asking me questions 

fake smile all these days

im sorry guys

i need to do that

n i have to do that

please understand my situation

thanks for always be with me

i'm not the old aiza anymore

i've changed

im not like this blog anymore

that full of colours

and happiness

i'm juz like a piece of paper

a blank white paper

Dear Allah, 

but the only thing i know

i know

Allah is always beside me

Allah is always waiting for me to ask for His forgiveness

oh Allah

im sorry for not being a good muslimah

im sorry for not being a good servant

im sorry for not doing my responsibilities towards Allah

if my time has come , please let me go peacefully

im so embarrassed to ask this from You

coz i know

im not eligible for this

i've done too many mistakes

but still do not repent

still doing the same mistakes

still do not ask for Your forgiveness

oh Allah

please bless me in whatever i do after this

i need You in all the things that i'll face after this

i cannot go through all this by myself , alone

i really2 need Your help

only You can help me

Sincerely,

Your servant